Because of all my doubt about academia and various ideas for a presentation proposal for above mentioned conference I had emailed Professor R. and asked if he had some time to spare. Of course he had, and so we met at his office today for a coffee.
Talking with him about all these ideas and fears and long term goals was so incredible helpful.

I will apply for the job. And if it is just to have two strings to one’s bow. Who knows if I even will get interviewed.